Depressed Asperger's Thoughts and Whatever

My internet friends are always rooting for me. I love them. Which led me to post an update status because I believed the people that follow/ed me deserve it. My brother called me. Yep. Because I had written in my post that not even my brother believed me. Instead of calling to check up on me for once, he called me to tell me he felt WRONGED. No. Me and my mom were the ones that were WRONGED. It goes back more than 2 years, but in these 2 years he moved out and only called me or messaged  me to do errands for him. "You don't respond to my messages" - because they're errands, what am I supposed to say? I just do them as I'm told to do, because even though he missed the point of everything I STILL LOVE HIM VERY MUCH, growing up with him was a blast and he was always kind and I ALWAYS idolized him. I'd talk to my friends about my brother's good grades, how good he was at every sport, how good he was at games and how I loved to watch him play gam...

In a land far far away, somewhere I don't like to go: a Church I had to go attend my nephew's baptism, keeping family ties blah blah blah. All was good until we all go eat at a restaurant they've reserved and they're like: I just hung down my head in shame, I have no answers to give... They always put me on the spot and I hate it. I don't hate them, but it's really frustrating and it makes me feel worse about myself.

My house is in renovations, the noise is crazy for me. It amps up all the bad things. I don't like being like this, I'm rude to everyone around and just want to be left alone.