Depressed Asperger's Thoughts and Whatever

 

Not trying to be edgy but I guess this is  kinda edgy. Ever since I was a child I've had a void in me. I was always chasing after objects, people, trying to fill it. But it never closes, just keeps getting bigger.

The muscle pain from kickboxing is kicking in. And it's supposed to be a hot day but I feel cold, really cold, but that's to be expected. Damn, why does that have to come with this condition?

I'll admit when I was bored lying in bed I was thinking about my future, then I thought about this. Bartip D&D or w/e it can be called. I thought it was a fun way to tip bartenders. If they can solve the dungeon they get the 5€, if they can't and only get past the first monster they only get 1€. Amusing/creative answer the [boss] monster might decide to let them pass, correct answer is, well, correct and as such well deserved. Yeah, I got a few screws loose I guess.

What do other people do when bored? I have a lot of stuff but no motivation at all for anything. 🤷‍♀️ I tried to collect only the things I was missing but the hole in my heart just kept getting bigger.

Thus I write here something. I just spent my day depressed not doing anything. All I did was stare at my screen and try to look for something to do. To no avail because I've grown bored or don't have the energy/motivation to play a game. Yep, I do this all day...... more often than not, it's not a Lonely Sunday exclusive.